Stunted Gnomish Boy says:
I went over to the neighbor's house and it was even better than I could've dreamed...
We sat in his backyard, and he took his shirt off. He told me I should take off my shirt, too, it was a warm sunny day and it is great to feel it on your skin...
I told him I never take my shirt off in front of anybody, but he told me that if I were to be at his house I had to leave such self-defeating beliefs outside the front door. I never thought about it like that: I took off my shirt, and the sun DID feel good, I felt like I was a soda commercial where everybody is at the beach, showing skin and being happy...
He told me I looked too tense for such a young age, and then he started massaging my shoulders, like it was no big deal. I closed my eyes and felt the sun on my exposed skin and his hands on my shoulders, and then I came...
I was SO embarrassed, but he said it wasn't anything to worry about: it was just a sign that my body was liking living this way, and it is true, I have never felt so relaxed...
It was getting close to dinner time, so I had to head home, but not before he invited me to come back whenever I wanted. Whenever I wanted? I wanted to be there, with him, ALL the time...
I walked home with my shirt off; when I went inside my Dad said I looked stupid and fat like that, and to put my shirt back on. I couldn't say it out loud, but in my head my voice was clear" Suck It, Dad. I can hardly wait to go next door tomorrow, where I can learn more about being myself...
I am The Replacement Laslo.
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